Today, I quite literally wanted to do absolutely nothing; and by absolutely nothing I mean lay on my bed and stare at the wall. I was feeling rather off and somewhat uncomfortable after a large part of my past resurfaced yesterday, and with it came a massive slew of emotions I wasn’t expecting (thank you, universe). This was a familiar feeling of wanting to do nothing. I knew that I had to do something because if I didn’t, and I had caved into that feeling, it would have spiraled further out of control and I would have ended up in a depressive state. So I stood in the middle of my room, continued to be unintrigued by the thought of anything, and then started brainstorming.
I quickly decided that I couldn’t just throw myself into an activity, namely the work I wanted to get done. I had to start slow and go easy on myself. Funnily enough, when I was writing out my daily intention this morning, I wrote “be gentle with myself and allow space to work through my emotions.” So I settled on soaking in a hot bath while listening to some podcast episodes. This was a compromise between my ego telling me to do nothing, and my higher self telling me to do something. This way, I could do nothing while doing something.
Side note: Around noon today, I went to the grocery store. When I got back into the car, I looked at the dashboard and it read 444 mi and 44 degrees. Angel numbers!
Anyway, I decided upon the Kimberley Wenya Podcast (which is amazing, check it out) and cued up three episodes. I got in the bath and started listening. All three episodes mentioned one of her masterclasses she had just released, so I looked up that masterclass and it was $44. AND when I checked my phone to see how long was left in the podcast, this is what I saw:
Pretty damn cool, right?! I didn’t notice the exact timing of the podcast, and how literally every number connected forming multiple angel numbers, until I looked at the screenshot (at first, I only noticed 3:33). At this point, I’m like “Hell Yeah! I am SO supported by the Universe, and all is happening exactly as it needs to be.”
So I finished up my bath, and decided to sit down all cozy on the couch, drink some tea, watch Harry Potter, and write out this blog post. The point of which being that if I had done nothing, and stared at the wall while laying on my bed I wouldn’t have listened to the podcast, seen more angel numbers, and been able to raise my vibe back up again. THE WORD COUNT BEFORE THIS SENTENCE IS 444! Oh my gosh, this is crazy and so freaking awesome!
Okay seriously people, the universe is always on our side if we just let it be! Have faith that where you are is exactly where you are supposed to be, and that everything will work out exactly as it’s supposed to. If you can do this, you’ll begin to learn how to get yourself back into a high vibe state, feeling fully supported. Thus, when you exit that high vibe state with negative feelings or emotions (which is bound to happen from time to time), it will be easier to get out of it instead of slipping further into it.
Here are a few steps for when you want to do absolutely nothing (and I mean the really unproductive, feel-sorry-for-yourself kind of nothing):
- Acknowledge that feeling of nothing. Do NOT engage it though, simply observe it as an outsider.
- Be kind to yourself. Don’t judge yourself or be mean to yourself for feeling this way – it’s OKAY!
- Think of a few things you can do to slowly start pulling yourself out; what is that something you could do?
- Remember, go easy on yourself, don’t push too hard or you’ll end up feeling worse.
- Decide on which something you would like to do. Bonus points if it’s a self-care activity!
- DO IT! Seriously. If you need help, count down from 5 and then just go do it (the five second rule – a lifesaver!)
You will start to feel better after you’ve done it, or even when you start to do it – you can feel that energy in you shift because you’re feeding your higher self, and not your ego. In so many words: you’ve done something. Something good.
P.S. After I finished writing this, I listened to another episode of the podcast while cooking dinner and Kimberley said she just looked at the clock at 4:44. Just sayin’.
